HELLO BLOGWORLD

Hey, I happened on the the wonderful world of blogging and decided maybe this is what I need right now, a place where I can say what I’m really feeling and really express myself (and its cheaper than therapy). Truth be told, I’ve been having some major emotional saga and I think I’m still traumatized, due to the fact that I can’t function as well as I used to, funny thing is I’ve perfected the act of portraying total control, I actually convince myself sometimes. I’m a really private person, so my friends never really know what goes on in my head, I hate showing weakness, so I’m always the perfect one with no problems and everyone just wishes they were as strong as I am, if only they knew I was bursting at the seams. Don’t get it twisted, I aint suicidal or anything like that but I’m human and I get depressed and when there’s no one to talk to, it escalates and that’s when you start thinking of stupid things you can do to numb the pain. In the light of keeping my post short, I’ll write about what got me like this in the next post, it all really started 8 months ago (still feels like yesterday though).