School has started in all its glory, from lecturers screaming for you to get out of their offices to lecturers sexually harassing you, girls looking like they just stepped out of glamour mag. My first week of school was tres wonderful, if I could say so myself.
I started the week off with my stalker giving me a present I didn’t want, he dropped it off at my house while I was at the cinema, you won’t believe how much of a nightmare returning it was, it was drama after drama.
My second wonderful moment was when a lecturer thought it would be appropriate to put his hand down my shirt, I was bewildered for a moment and then I started shouting at the man like he was my little brother, I told him to apologize which he did eventually, it was really sick.
But the highlight of the week, wait for it, wait for it, drum roll please, my phone got stolen right under my nose, it was too sad I couldn’t cry, one minute it was on the table, turn around for a second and then it just disappears. I’m not as upset over the phone as I am over my contacts.
Okay, so that was my week, I wonder what the rest of the semester brings, people please pray for me to get money to buy a phone ooo, being that I don’t have an aristo or a boyfriend, this lady is an independent woman who’s as broke as hell, I wasn’t anticipating this when I was doing all that shopping for school. Ciao
Wednesday, 18 July 2007
Friday, 6 July 2007
SAINTS OR SINNERS
The concept of right and wrong, we’re all supposed to know about it right, but believe it or not some people don’t. The question I always ask that usually evades me is, if someone lives a certain lifestyle that the person doesn’t know is wrong, where will the person go when they die.
Imagine a child that was born with witchcraft around him/her, therefore the child grows up thinking that is a way of life, if said child dies, do they go to hell. Some years back there was a small colony discovered in our very own naija, these people were prowling around near nakedness and worshipping idols, they didn’t know any different, if any of them died where would they go. In the Victorian days incest was a common practice, cousins got married; brother and sister had sexual relations and so forth, what was in store for them in the afterlife. In all these situations, these people didn’t know any better and were living according to their society, so will they suffer a fate they didn’t know they were headed to. In our courts of law they say ignorance is not a defense, does the same apply to a higher plane.
There was a guy sometime ago in naij that stole 4 million Naira from his employers, it was some hotel, and he gave the money to the church. Did he think he did something wrong, he didn’t keep a cent for himself, how would this person be judged. What about the man who doesn’t have a religion but believes in the existence of a higher being, he talks to this higher being, he’s a good person and does a lot of good for the world, he lives his life with minimal sin, but what happens to him after death because of the religion clause.
I’ve tried to answer these questions, but I cant, yet I always seem to wonder about these things, do you think you have an answer.
Imagine a child that was born with witchcraft around him/her, therefore the child grows up thinking that is a way of life, if said child dies, do they go to hell. Some years back there was a small colony discovered in our very own naija, these people were prowling around near nakedness and worshipping idols, they didn’t know any different, if any of them died where would they go. In the Victorian days incest was a common practice, cousins got married; brother and sister had sexual relations and so forth, what was in store for them in the afterlife. In all these situations, these people didn’t know any better and were living according to their society, so will they suffer a fate they didn’t know they were headed to. In our courts of law they say ignorance is not a defense, does the same apply to a higher plane.
There was a guy sometime ago in naij that stole 4 million Naira from his employers, it was some hotel, and he gave the money to the church. Did he think he did something wrong, he didn’t keep a cent for himself, how would this person be judged. What about the man who doesn’t have a religion but believes in the existence of a higher being, he talks to this higher being, he’s a good person and does a lot of good for the world, he lives his life with minimal sin, but what happens to him after death because of the religion clause.
I’ve tried to answer these questions, but I cant, yet I always seem to wonder about these things, do you think you have an answer.
Saturday, 30 June 2007
CHIP ON THE SHOULDER
Hey everyone, been MIA because that last post got me kinda weak, so I spaced out for a bit, but I’m back. Was watching pride and prejudice today and all I could think bout was how the hell do they have sex being that they are all proper and shit, she’ll probably go, (using the Victorian British accent) oh Mr. Darcy, do give it to me a tad bit harder than you were just now, lawl, okay that was a random thought.
Back to the topic, do you guys notice how a lot of people in naij have a chip on their shoulder, I went out today and I had to pop into some office, since I was in a hurry, I didn’t park too well but I made sure not to block anyone in. When I got out and was about to get into my car, I heard a guy screaming at me (apparently he was the security man) why did you park like this ehn, if our oga sees this one now, you people sef, the guy was screaming ready to rain insults on my head. I then calmly replied, I’m sorry, I didn’t realize it was wrong to park this way, the guy was so obviously taken aback, it was laughable, he had geared up for a shouting match.
I think it’s just a way for some people to feel powerful, a lot of people do it. You go to an office and the receptionist is especially rude to you, you go in a shop and you’re looking around and the shop girls are like eyeing you cause they think you’re wasting their time, you’re talking to some guy and some girl comes up to him without acknowledging you the list goes on and on. They say Nigerians are one of the happiest people in the world, but most of them are rude and obnoxious for the most part. I think its cause most people are frustrated and they just keep it all inside, u know how everyone wants to seem perfect, like I know this woman who told my mum her husband hasn’t touched her in two years, now that has got to be highly frustrating. People should just go get therapy, what you think.
Random rant- I saw dream girls for the first time today (whateva, I know everyone else in the world has seen it), every time I have to say no, I sing no, no, no, no way, I’m trying to feel like Jennifer Hudson.
Who saw the BET awards, I think ciara has gmynorexia, she’s so thin, muscular and she’s got no boobs, It was not a pretty sight to me. Ciao y’all.
Back to the topic, do you guys notice how a lot of people in naij have a chip on their shoulder, I went out today and I had to pop into some office, since I was in a hurry, I didn’t park too well but I made sure not to block anyone in. When I got out and was about to get into my car, I heard a guy screaming at me (apparently he was the security man) why did you park like this ehn, if our oga sees this one now, you people sef, the guy was screaming ready to rain insults on my head. I then calmly replied, I’m sorry, I didn’t realize it was wrong to park this way, the guy was so obviously taken aback, it was laughable, he had geared up for a shouting match.
I think it’s just a way for some people to feel powerful, a lot of people do it. You go to an office and the receptionist is especially rude to you, you go in a shop and you’re looking around and the shop girls are like eyeing you cause they think you’re wasting their time, you’re talking to some guy and some girl comes up to him without acknowledging you the list goes on and on. They say Nigerians are one of the happiest people in the world, but most of them are rude and obnoxious for the most part. I think its cause most people are frustrated and they just keep it all inside, u know how everyone wants to seem perfect, like I know this woman who told my mum her husband hasn’t touched her in two years, now that has got to be highly frustrating. People should just go get therapy, what you think.
Random rant- I saw dream girls for the first time today (whateva, I know everyone else in the world has seen it), every time I have to say no, I sing no, no, no, no way, I’m trying to feel like Jennifer Hudson.
Who saw the BET awards, I think ciara has gmynorexia, she’s so thin, muscular and she’s got no boobs, It was not a pretty sight to me. Ciao y’all.
Saturday, 23 June 2007
THE RAPE (concluding part)
As I was walking to the bus stop, I started to reflect on what happened, did I just get raped, was it my fault, what did I do wrong. When I got home, I took a long hot bath, that was the end of my holiday. I was withdrawn the rest of the time I spent wiv my cousins, they just thot I was missing my man. I thot why bother going to the police, I’m not even in my own country and the scandal, what would my parents say, so I didn’t tell anyone. He used a condom (I was like, if he used a condom is it still rape), I was too confused.
When I got home, between tears I told my man he comforted me and told me everything would be fine, I was so grateful for having him. I couldn’t stand anyone touching me for the first couple of months, my man helped me through it all, after a while the trauma started fading and it just seemed like a nightmare.
I talked to some people about the rape issue and it was crazy some of the responses I got, I would usually say, oh I heard about this on T.V. or I read this somewhere, I’m sorry guys but a lot of you are sons of b******. Someone told me he couldn’t touch his girlfriend if she was raped, another said what trauma, she’ll get over it, she wasn’t a virgin, was she, another said it would probably just be like rough sex, the point is that noone got it, they all thought as long as she wasn’t a virgin and it was just one guy, therefore it wasn’t serious, some people even said maybe she was asking for it. I was like WOW, is this what people really think, it was really sad.
My man made me realize I was raped and convinced me to stop blaming myself, he said it was not my fault and after a while I started believing him, I’m so grateful he was in my life back then. Its sad how people don’t take this issue seriously in naij, some mothers would even blame their child when they are raped when they need comfort and reassurance. The incident actually made me a stronger person, we all have trauma in our lives, some worse than others, we shouldn’t let it break us down, we should learn and grow from it.
Next post will be cheerful, scouts’ honour.
When I got home, between tears I told my man he comforted me and told me everything would be fine, I was so grateful for having him. I couldn’t stand anyone touching me for the first couple of months, my man helped me through it all, after a while the trauma started fading and it just seemed like a nightmare.
I talked to some people about the rape issue and it was crazy some of the responses I got, I would usually say, oh I heard about this on T.V. or I read this somewhere, I’m sorry guys but a lot of you are sons of b******. Someone told me he couldn’t touch his girlfriend if she was raped, another said what trauma, she’ll get over it, she wasn’t a virgin, was she, another said it would probably just be like rough sex, the point is that noone got it, they all thought as long as she wasn’t a virgin and it was just one guy, therefore it wasn’t serious, some people even said maybe she was asking for it. I was like WOW, is this what people really think, it was really sad.
My man made me realize I was raped and convinced me to stop blaming myself, he said it was not my fault and after a while I started believing him, I’m so grateful he was in my life back then. Its sad how people don’t take this issue seriously in naij, some mothers would even blame their child when they are raped when they need comfort and reassurance. The incident actually made me a stronger person, we all have trauma in our lives, some worse than others, we shouldn’t let it break us down, we should learn and grow from it.
Next post will be cheerful, scouts’ honour.
Friday, 22 June 2007
THE RAPE
This is really hard for me to write cause it brings back memories I have tried hard to put behind me, but I guess this is a form of therapy so here goes.
It was one of those summer holidays and this one was especially long cause my uni was on strike as is customary to naij unis, I couldn’t wait to get out of the country for a well deserved vacation. Unfortunately, my boyfriend was going to the states and I was on my way to London, I was so sad, I wouldn’t get to see him for two whole months but my consolation was that we would talk on the phone almost everyday, with that note we kissed and said our goodbyes. I was looking forward to a great summer, I had no idea it was one I would never forget.
It all started one day when I met up wiv some friends, they brought along a guy that they go to school with and we all went out to see a movie. After the movie, the guy asked for my number and I gave it to him, we started talking on the phone and I made it clear to him that I had a boyfriend and all we would be were friends and he seemed alright with that. We met up a few times and everything was all good and we became friends.
One day, I met him at the station near his house, we were off to see a movie, and then he suddenly remembered that he left his wallet at home and he had to go get it and I was like okay let’s go. When we got to his house he proceeded to show me around his crib, as he was showing me his room, I sat on the bed and started looking at pictures. He started kissing me and I told him to stop, he didn’t listen, I started to push him off and he started to grip me harder, I began to shout and scream, he forced me on my back, I started to beg, he told me he knew I wanted him and I should stop fronting, I started to cry and beg, he told me to shut up or he’ll dump my clothes in water. That’s when it happened, I never experienced such pain, I felt so helpless, I just closed my eyes, sobbing and praying for everything to be over. He got off me and I got dressed, as I was leaving he tried to kiss me, I cried all the way home.
To be continued……………………………
It was one of those summer holidays and this one was especially long cause my uni was on strike as is customary to naij unis, I couldn’t wait to get out of the country for a well deserved vacation. Unfortunately, my boyfriend was going to the states and I was on my way to London, I was so sad, I wouldn’t get to see him for two whole months but my consolation was that we would talk on the phone almost everyday, with that note we kissed and said our goodbyes. I was looking forward to a great summer, I had no idea it was one I would never forget.
It all started one day when I met up wiv some friends, they brought along a guy that they go to school with and we all went out to see a movie. After the movie, the guy asked for my number and I gave it to him, we started talking on the phone and I made it clear to him that I had a boyfriend and all we would be were friends and he seemed alright with that. We met up a few times and everything was all good and we became friends.
One day, I met him at the station near his house, we were off to see a movie, and then he suddenly remembered that he left his wallet at home and he had to go get it and I was like okay let’s go. When we got to his house he proceeded to show me around his crib, as he was showing me his room, I sat on the bed and started looking at pictures. He started kissing me and I told him to stop, he didn’t listen, I started to push him off and he started to grip me harder, I began to shout and scream, he forced me on my back, I started to beg, he told me he knew I wanted him and I should stop fronting, I started to cry and beg, he told me to shut up or he’ll dump my clothes in water. That’s when it happened, I never experienced such pain, I felt so helpless, I just closed my eyes, sobbing and praying for everything to be over. He got off me and I got dressed, as I was leaving he tried to kiss me, I cried all the way home.
To be continued……………………………
Thursday, 21 June 2007
7 THINGS
There’s this 60 question thingie going around but I don’t think I wanna do that cause its too damn long and I don’t think anyone would be inclined to go through it being that I’ not a blogiwood celeb lol,so I’m just gonna do the 7 things you don’t know bout me.
1. I wash my hands like a 100 times a day, I have this obsession about cleanliness and I usually find myself tidying up everywhere I go.
2. I can’t sleep on the same bed with a girl, be it a single, double or quadruple bed, I blame my mum, she never let me go for sleepovers when I was younger. It’s so bad that whenever anyone of my friends has to sleep over I usually sleep on the couch (they all say I’m a closet lesbian and I’m scared of what I might do to them, lol).
3. I have a very bad temper but I’m very patient, does that make sense. I don’t get angry that easily, I usually let things slide but if you piss me off, well, let me just say it aint a pretty site.
4. I would rather buy a pair of shoes than buy food (its sad, I know).
5. I’m addicted to exercise but I could never diet, the thought of eating only healthy food scares me, I’d rather spend the extra 30 minutes on the treadmill (besides eating healthy is more expensive).
6. I love Sundays since I get to do anything I want, its “me” day and no one can take it away from me, plus I get to sleep late (no morning jog, no church).
7. When I was younger, I thought I would grow up and save the world, end world hunger, and stuff, I try to help the needy, I’m still working up to saving the world.
CONFESSION TIME
Okay, I'm sure evryone will be happy to know I told my girl, it went okay by all standards, the girl is really sensitive and really insecure bout her body, she's really skinny and therefore lacking in some areas and she always gets really upset when anyone says anything bout it, most times you have to tiptoe around her when it comes to issues like this. This is how it went.
Psykotik: girl wasup, whats been going on wiv you
Friend: nothing really, Oh, I called that guy and we've started talking now
Psykotik: thats cool, speaking about Mr Hot, did I tell you he was sending me texts and he called me once or twice,(she's looking at me funny)
it was nothing really, I think he was just trying to be friendly.
Friend: na wa for you this man magnet, remind me never to take you when I'm man hunting and I aint introducing you to my next boyfriend until we are goin strong.(she's laughing)
Psykotik: (still feeling a little tension in the air) you got jokes, it wasn't like that, nyways he has stopped contacting me, so its all good.
Friend: hmmm, whatever. so about that thing (she starts talking bout something else)
So, I'm guessing it went well, after the conversation we said goodbye and we didn't speak about it. I'm hoping she gets over being upset, its funny how my friends think getting a man would be really easy for me, they all go you have all the assets,lol, then why haven't I found someone who would sweep me off my feet and make me forget the EX.
Psykotik: girl wasup, whats been going on wiv you
Friend: nothing really, Oh, I called that guy and we've started talking now
Psykotik: thats cool, speaking about Mr Hot, did I tell you he was sending me texts and he called me once or twice,(she's looking at me funny)
it was nothing really, I think he was just trying to be friendly.
Friend: na wa for you this man magnet, remind me never to take you when I'm man hunting and I aint introducing you to my next boyfriend until we are goin strong.(she's laughing)
Psykotik: (still feeling a little tension in the air) you got jokes, it wasn't like that, nyways he has stopped contacting me, so its all good.
Friend: hmmm, whatever. so about that thing (she starts talking bout something else)
So, I'm guessing it went well, after the conversation we said goodbye and we didn't speak about it. I'm hoping she gets over being upset, its funny how my friends think getting a man would be really easy for me, they all go you have all the assets,lol, then why haven't I found someone who would sweep me off my feet and make me forget the EX.
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